The truth is, you gave me a huge confidence boost. Not in the way that makes me feel that I'm good at something but more like you were my source of motivation, you got me to change, improve and just be better. I guess I have you to thank for that. I do regret a lot but I know that the time for that is too late. What I don't regret are the experiences which I've shared with you, which ultimately made me who I am today in terms of my beliefs, morals and way of thinking. So right now I feel I have a lot to thank you for so let's just leave this on a positive note before I go onto the much more negative note.
Thank you
Monday, October 28, 2013
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Oh I just remembered why I got so wasted
Sigh, my life can be summed up in 4 letters, "Ughh" or any other 4 letter word you can think of which isn't positive
Blogs
Why do people have them?
Over the past years, each of us have had numerous blogs. So why do we create new blogs or delete old blogs or just create new blogs and not use the old ones?
Why do people have blogs in the first place?
Most of the people within our age group use blogs in the form of a public diary where we vent, rant, write about our lives, personal views, etc.
Over the years, I think I've had/shared 4-6 blogs. The very first being a joint blog between 3 people, who were pretty close to me back then. We just posted anything I think, nice pictures, rants, indirect/ambiguous messages for each other and so on. Eventually that blog died down when one of the friends pretty much drifted away.
The next blog I think, was my own personal blog. Where I wrote about more personal things, how I feel, my emotions, my thoughts and all. I stopped posting there once I shared another joint blog with a friend, it was as much hers as it was mine, there we too blogged nice pictures, little things about ourselves, with mixtures of rants and stuff. It was a really pretty blog to be honest, we paid attention to little details as to how presentable each post had to be.
After that, I believe another blog was created which was specifically for only my friend and I. There we posted about ourselves, how we felt, our thoughts and all that deeper stuff. These kind of blogs made me realized how great it is to type out your feelings. Sometimes keeping it in is just too difficult and if you're fighting with someone, at least you pretty much know where to find each other's thoughts when things are pretty heated.
I think it was a few months after that, I created this blog. I gave up on blogging for a while and only stuck to the shared personal blog but high school was getting harder to deal with in 2012 so I decided to create a new blog, this blog.
As you'd all know, there's a bit of everything, my interests, some rants, some things about my life, how I feel to a certain extent, my opinions.
Now you see, the issue with public and private blogs is that I feel the need to vent and rant but my blog is public. Most of the things I feel I need to get off my chest is personal so what do I do?
That's where I remembered that I had a personal private blog, it was pretty weird, looking at a blog which you last used 2 years ago.
It is there, where I pour my feelings out onto the screen via keyboard, I feel that if blogs were never invented, I wouldn't have been able to deal with what life has thrown at me.
That brings me to another topic, blog titles. I cringe whenever I see my blog url or title like say from 3 years ago; strollingdownthelonelyroad.bspot like what? .__.
Over the past years, each of us have had numerous blogs. So why do we create new blogs or delete old blogs or just create new blogs and not use the old ones?
Why do people have blogs in the first place?
Most of the people within our age group use blogs in the form of a public diary where we vent, rant, write about our lives, personal views, etc.
Over the years, I think I've had/shared 4-6 blogs. The very first being a joint blog between 3 people, who were pretty close to me back then. We just posted anything I think, nice pictures, rants, indirect/ambiguous messages for each other and so on. Eventually that blog died down when one of the friends pretty much drifted away.
The next blog I think, was my own personal blog. Where I wrote about more personal things, how I feel, my emotions, my thoughts and all. I stopped posting there once I shared another joint blog with a friend, it was as much hers as it was mine, there we too blogged nice pictures, little things about ourselves, with mixtures of rants and stuff. It was a really pretty blog to be honest, we paid attention to little details as to how presentable each post had to be.
After that, I believe another blog was created which was specifically for only my friend and I. There we posted about ourselves, how we felt, our thoughts and all that deeper stuff. These kind of blogs made me realized how great it is to type out your feelings. Sometimes keeping it in is just too difficult and if you're fighting with someone, at least you pretty much know where to find each other's thoughts when things are pretty heated.
I think it was a few months after that, I created this blog. I gave up on blogging for a while and only stuck to the shared personal blog but high school was getting harder to deal with in 2012 so I decided to create a new blog, this blog.
As you'd all know, there's a bit of everything, my interests, some rants, some things about my life, how I feel to a certain extent, my opinions.
Now you see, the issue with public and private blogs is that I feel the need to vent and rant but my blog is public. Most of the things I feel I need to get off my chest is personal so what do I do?
That's where I remembered that I had a personal private blog, it was pretty weird, looking at a blog which you last used 2 years ago.
It is there, where I pour my feelings out onto the screen via keyboard, I feel that if blogs were never invented, I wouldn't have been able to deal with what life has thrown at me.
That brings me to another topic, blog titles. I cringe whenever I see my blog url or title like say from 3 years ago; strollingdownthelonelyroad.bspot like what? .__.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Friday, October 25, 2013
Blinded
How could I have been so naive, I'm a walking contradiction, instead of barricading myself and not facing the truth (hence reality), I chose to just not think about it. I thought about it a lot today, during the day when we were eating, even while I was working.
I need to make a choice, maybe I can do both but if not, which will it be?
Maybe I'll attend the dinner for a bit and then attend the other to drink it all out. I'll never know which is the best way to deal with reality unless I try. Instead of doing what everyone else tells me to do, I'm hurting myself but I'm doing this so I know which is the better way, my way or theirs.
I need to make a choice, maybe I can do both but if not, which will it be?
Maybe I'll attend the dinner for a bit and then attend the other to drink it all out. I'll never know which is the best way to deal with reality unless I try. Instead of doing what everyone else tells me to do, I'm hurting myself but I'm doing this so I know which is the better way, my way or theirs.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
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