Hmm

I wanted to go.. until I saw your name .__.
Anybody else have that weird feeling where you don't really like the idea of someone/some people hanging out with your friends? Sigh.

November -> Christmas Eve

Looks like I'll be spending Christmas alone at home. My holidays haven't been that great, not really proud of anything. I also gave up on blogging and went back to tweeting but I prefer a more subtle place to rant out my problems. Haven't really hung out with my school friends, not even sure if they are still considered friends.  Many people I wanted to stay in contact with which I haven't. Then suddenly I feel like going out with them but I'm not the type of person who likes organising stuff because I'm simply not great at it.

With the ATARs and stuff slowly dying down, I'm starting not to care any more and accepted the fact that I'll be heading to UWS for some time. The courses I've chosen also.. well I don't particularly have an interest in them but I find them to be manageable I guess.

Going to the gym, sadly I haven't lost weight.. I maintained my 62-63kg weight since early 2011 but sadly I'm not 68 and I haven't grown at all; although, maybe I have, horizontally. With no job (I am searching), crappy ATAR, there isn't anything I must point out about my life is there? Despite being shy most of the time, I do consider myself being a 'people's person'. I like people (not saying I don't dislike them too) as in I've always put people first, the type of person who drops what they're doing to talk or help or what not. Not sure if that's what led to my failure or whatever; there's not much I can do about it anyway.

Swimming-
I need to start swimming again with Nick and Andrew or whoever. The three of us used to rock climb, swim and all that at Villawood during year 11 and year 12 up until mid year exams. Considering I've gained weight and laze around all day, I'm not too comfortable with swimming so I'll have to lose the fat first. Rock climbing sounds good though, still need to overcome my fear of heights so yeah can't wait! (I hope one of us is bothered to organise it, preferably Nick.)

I noticed other people going swimming too or wanting to like Bill. So maybe we'll have a group outing to the idunno pools/beach?

Anyway I would had bought presents and all if I had money, but I do promise to maybe send packages in a few years time titled '2012 Christmas Pressie from James' haha.

Was gonna continue this post but i have to wash my mum's car now so bye people.

lol if it makes anybody feel better, i got that stupid overused number for my atar. gg.

even i can't believe it, life seems over

With less than two hours left... I will peep. Then I will say goodbye.

Reappearance

Welcome me back my friends. Just a quick recap -

Formal night was great. Everybody looked stunning. I could give many examples but as we all know with Duongie being the sexiest female and Anna the best dressed, I gotta say, everybody that night was special.
I'm pretty sure most of us don't dance but It's nice seeing everyone having the courage to at least try to have fun. I mean you only have one year 12 formal, best not to regret anything right? Speaking of regret, I should've taken more pictures with others even if I didn't talk to them.

I have so much to say about formal but I'll just say this; I will miss everyone.

Today's picnic for the penniless wasn't too bad either, despite the weather being all you know, it eventually cooled down and yeah it's just nice seeing everyone again. Wish to see you guys more often; holidays get pretty lonely and boring without any familiar faces.