Sunday, September 30, 2012
I don't like being forced to go to some random place where I'm forced to pray with people all older than 40 years and then listen to stories about Buddhism. I barely understand all the things they say anyway and will this really give me 99.95 ATAR lol.. Sigh I'm sure you guys would understand why i think this is such a waste of time and how I feel. I wasted the day knowing I had to go to this because simply it was gonna be a crappy day and I did not feel like doing any study, not that I do anyway.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Dreams
Off the topic of TBH's for now and on with DREAMS.
Okay I think the reason why I decided to blog about this topic is because I had a recurring dream last night. It sucks that I don't remember the details but I know I've had the exact same dream before. Dreams is such a broad topic, I could go on about recurring dreams, nightmares, lucid dreaming, and just basically about how great dreams are.
Usually I don't dream because the sleep I get is too short inorder for a dream to occur but when it does happen, in most cases I don't want to wake up. Especially those very fulfilling dreams where you achieve such great feats. In some dreams I was able to fly, have superhuman strength, run up walls and all that. In others I've been rich, had all the money in the world, was able to actually obtain my most desired material goodies and stuff.
All in all, I don't think I've ever had a nightmare. What is a nightmare? A scary dream which is bearable or is it a dream where one is meant to wake up all scared and sweaty to? Nevertheless I don't think I've had a nightmare or a masculinely desirable dream before.
All in all, I don't think I've ever had a nightmare. What is a nightmare? A scary dream which is bearable or is it a dream where one is meant to wake up all scared and sweaty to? Nevertheless I don't think I've had a nightmare or a masculinely desirable dream before.
I wish my dreams were able to last longer that way I could probably enjoy my sleep so much more but most likely wake up a lot more disappointed haha.
Winnie
In reply to your text, no I don't hate you and I never did; sorry I've got no credit.
You never knew I existed until probably the end of last year or the beginning of this year. I was in your bio class for an entire year and I sat literally in front of you a metre away LOL. Anyway yeah we've got to known each other a little better and I'm glad I'm able to talk to you now. The thing is we all hung out at A block and I found it strange that I couldn't talk to specific people cause how does that make us a group then right? Anyway we've had our talks and laughs both in Bio and out, at school or on outings. What most people misunderstood about you being in control with organising outings and stuff, I guess you probably stepped up cause no body else would so that's something I admire about you, you can get things done.
About the C12 dance. There were quite a few practices and many people could not attend (not blaming anyone), but yeah you along with tracy managed to organise these practises so that all/a majority of us could make some progress with the dance. You trained us hard and made all of us sore which was tiring and painful but benefited us anyway. I think our dance was a huge success despite the fact that it was pretty uneven as in sometimes we'd be perfect, other times we'd be totally out of sync. I'd like to thank you and tracy for allowing the actual dance to work.
What else is there to say? I did mention you were fun to talk to and be around right?
Anyway onto the not so bright side.
This is just my own perspective. Temper; we're all able to have fun when everybody's happy right? Sometimes unfortunately, I see that you're unhappy or pissed. Not saying that you don't have a right to be i mean yeah it's normal to get angry when things are screwed up and don't go your way. The truth is everybody is pretty much as frustrated as you are, however it doesn't help when you display it though. Talking about it is okay but showing that you're uphappy merely through actions and stuff, it kinda makes me not want to be around.
Other than that I hope we get to know each other better and I look forward to seeing you and everybody else soon perhaps. If not then what can I say, I was pretty sure that my posts were going to be taken the wrong way anyway. And if you along with everyone else I mentioned happen to hate me after this then so be it.
You never knew I existed until probably the end of last year or the beginning of this year. I was in your bio class for an entire year and I sat literally in front of you a metre away LOL. Anyway yeah we've got to known each other a little better and I'm glad I'm able to talk to you now. The thing is we all hung out at A block and I found it strange that I couldn't talk to specific people cause how does that make us a group then right? Anyway we've had our talks and laughs both in Bio and out, at school or on outings. What most people misunderstood about you being in control with organising outings and stuff, I guess you probably stepped up cause no body else would so that's something I admire about you, you can get things done.
About the C12 dance. There were quite a few practices and many people could not attend (not blaming anyone), but yeah you along with tracy managed to organise these practises so that all/a majority of us could make some progress with the dance. You trained us hard and made all of us sore which was tiring and painful but benefited us anyway. I think our dance was a huge success despite the fact that it was pretty uneven as in sometimes we'd be perfect, other times we'd be totally out of sync. I'd like to thank you and tracy for allowing the actual dance to work.
What else is there to say? I did mention you were fun to talk to and be around right?
Anyway onto the not so bright side.
This is just my own perspective. Temper; we're all able to have fun when everybody's happy right? Sometimes unfortunately, I see that you're unhappy or pissed. Not saying that you don't have a right to be i mean yeah it's normal to get angry when things are screwed up and don't go your way. The truth is everybody is pretty much as frustrated as you are, however it doesn't help when you display it though. Talking about it is okay but showing that you're uphappy merely through actions and stuff, it kinda makes me not want to be around.
Other than that I hope we get to know each other better and I look forward to seeing you and everybody else soon perhaps. If not then what can I say, I was pretty sure that my posts were going to be taken the wrong way anyway. And if you along with everyone else I mentioned happen to hate me after this then so be it.
Kim
I've known you since year 6... well I knew your name and who you were at least haha. Didn't really talk to you much until i think it was year 10 or 11 when I started hanging out at A block too. I don't remember how we started talking but yeah I could say we've grown a lot closer. You're amazing at singing and despite being put under so much pressure, you're always willing to help your friends out, e.g. howard & Julia, hsb and others. You and Jen are always great together when it comes to performances. I believe I still have your black batman shirt from the beach outing and I've got no credit atm to text you so we'll see, I'll try to get it back to you asap or when you need it haha. I never knew you lived so close to me until last year. I knew we went to the same primary school but not that we literally lived a walking minute away from each other. Since year 11, I've been seeing you around more and I'm satisified in saying our friendship is pretty strong and I know that I'm able to talk to you about pretty much anything that comes to mind. Overall you're a nice, funny and very talented person.
Negative note:
Uhmm it's good to be cautious but from what i see, you're usually worried with things like if people hate you and stuff. I don't think many people do, including myself, you seem to like analyse what people say or do around you/about you but usually it's not directed at you haha. Also you're great company but what I realised was that you've always got company so like occasionally people and I would feel dogged since like when you're alone we'd be with you whereas if you're with someone else we're completely ignored.
Overall like I said in the other posts, I overlook these things and still treat you nicely nevertheless because your positives outweight the negative and you're still a spectacular person.
Negative note:
Uhmm it's good to be cautious but from what i see, you're usually worried with things like if people hate you and stuff. I don't think many people do, including myself, you seem to like analyse what people say or do around you/about you but usually it's not directed at you haha. Also you're great company but what I realised was that you've always got company so like occasionally people and I would feel dogged since like when you're alone we'd be with you whereas if you're with someone else we're completely ignored.
Overall like I said in the other posts, I overlook these things and still treat you nicely nevertheless because your positives outweight the negative and you're still a spectacular person.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Lucy
I've known you pretty much as long as I've known matthew I believe. Uhhh where do I start? I think I knew you though VA in year 8 when we had Mrs... Rohan? But yeah, you were probably the first girl that talked to me back then as in like bothered to talk to me and say hi and all that. I guess back then, I had a crush on you and liked you for that along with your looks. I found you cute and pretty and yeah being who I was back then, I liked girls like that easily. What made it develop was the fact that we talked, usually it'd be me crushing on people that don't even know my name haha. Anyway our friendship grew and we got a lot closer I think in year 10 when we had Science together. I'm not sure whether we're closer now, than we were back then but yeah nevertheless it's been a great priviledge knowing you. You've been there for me when nobody else was, and you've helped me with my own problems and I hope I've also been able to help you with your own. I'm pretty sure I can write a lot more about you but I'm confident in knowing that you know how I think of you. Basically you too are one of the closer friends and we had this thing where we officially considered each other as family LOL as in bro and sis and that still applies for me. I'll still look out for you as if you were my sibling.
As for the bad/not so good note - I really don't know how to put this out. I don't want to seem harsh but hey like I said in one of my previous posts, the negative things i take notice of are only and just only my own opinions and they way I treat you isn't fake, If I still treat you nicely, it just shows that despite these so called negative flaws that i notice, I still appreciate you as a friend and overlook these flaws. It's just something, an honest view if you'd like to call it that. Up to you whether or not you want to change them.
Okay first of all, this isn't something you can really change, kinda came naturally. Your looks. Since when was it bad to be attractive and be good looking you may ask? Well first of all maybe the attention is great and all but like sometimes guys who fall for you are given false hope you know? Like I get that you show that you're not interested but if you do ever start leading them on, you might see it as making them happy which is good but leading them on is never a good thing. They'll be disappointed in the end after wasting so much time liking you. There are quite a few guys I know, from my own observations maybe 5-6 guys have their sights onto you. Not all of them show it but when they're around you, I can just feel it. Take note that you can't change your appearances but I'm just saying, we all see it LOL
Secondly, pride. I never really thought about nor gave a shit about the word pride ever until I talked to you. We had this talk once about it, apologising, confrontations and all that. This isn't directed at you but at everyone who stumbles across this. Guys saying sorry isn't bad unless it no longer has a meaning. I mean apologising to someone and admitting you're wrong, who the heck wants that right? It's so pride depriving and it makes you lose face but honestly if a friendship, relationship or whatever is, is worth it, why not do it. Who cares about all that, it's better just to admit your mistakes, learn from it and move on. However, not admitting you're wrong is another thing. Knowing that you had a little fault in it and just not apologising.. sigh i don't feel like going into that. Sorry Lucy LOL.
What else is there to say? Ah... the thing on the last week of school. Okay well I didn't confront you with this yet because I wasn't sure as to how to do so. I'm pretty sure you knew what you were doing and yeah from my point of view, I don't think that was such a good idea but judging from the few recent days, it hasn't really had an affect so I guess it was just pure luck that nobody was crushed by it.
As for the bad/not so good note - I really don't know how to put this out. I don't want to seem harsh but hey like I said in one of my previous posts, the negative things i take notice of are only and just only my own opinions and they way I treat you isn't fake, If I still treat you nicely, it just shows that despite these so called negative flaws that i notice, I still appreciate you as a friend and overlook these flaws. It's just something, an honest view if you'd like to call it that. Up to you whether or not you want to change them.
Okay first of all, this isn't something you can really change, kinda came naturally. Your looks. Since when was it bad to be attractive and be good looking you may ask? Well first of all maybe the attention is great and all but like sometimes guys who fall for you are given false hope you know? Like I get that you show that you're not interested but if you do ever start leading them on, you might see it as making them happy which is good but leading them on is never a good thing. They'll be disappointed in the end after wasting so much time liking you. There are quite a few guys I know, from my own observations maybe 5-6 guys have their sights onto you. Not all of them show it but when they're around you, I can just feel it. Take note that you can't change your appearances but I'm just saying, we all see it LOL
Secondly, pride. I never really thought about nor gave a shit about the word pride ever until I talked to you. We had this talk once about it, apologising, confrontations and all that. This isn't directed at you but at everyone who stumbles across this. Guys saying sorry isn't bad unless it no longer has a meaning. I mean apologising to someone and admitting you're wrong, who the heck wants that right? It's so pride depriving and it makes you lose face but honestly if a friendship, relationship or whatever is, is worth it, why not do it. Who cares about all that, it's better just to admit your mistakes, learn from it and move on. However, not admitting you're wrong is another thing. Knowing that you had a little fault in it and just not apologising.. sigh i don't feel like going into that. Sorry Lucy LOL.
What else is there to say? Ah... the thing on the last week of school. Okay well I didn't confront you with this yet because I wasn't sure as to how to do so. I'm pretty sure you knew what you were doing and yeah from my point of view, I don't think that was such a good idea but judging from the few recent days, it hasn't really had an affect so I guess it was just pure luck that nobody was crushed by it.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
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