Lucy

I've known you pretty much as long as I've known matthew I believe. Uhhh where do I start? I think I knew you though VA in year 8 when we had Mrs... Rohan? But yeah, you were probably the first girl that talked to me back then as in like bothered to talk to me and say hi and all that. I guess back then, I had a crush on you and liked you for that along with your looks. I found you cute and pretty and yeah being who I was back then, I liked girls like that easily. What made it develop was the fact that we talked, usually it'd be me crushing on people that don't even know my name haha. Anyway our friendship grew and we got a lot closer I think in year 10 when we had Science together. I'm not sure whether we're closer now, than we were back then but yeah nevertheless it's been a great priviledge knowing you. You've been there for me when nobody else was, and you've helped me with my own problems and I hope I've also been able to help you with your own. I'm pretty sure I can write a lot more about you but I'm confident in knowing that you know how I think of you. Basically you too are one of the closer friends and we had this thing where we officially considered each other as family LOL as in bro and sis and that still applies for me. I'll still look out for you as if you were my sibling.

As for the bad/not so good note - I really don't know how to put this out. I don't want to seem harsh but hey like I said in one of my previous posts, the negative things i take notice of are only and just only my own opinions and they way I treat you isn't fake, If I still treat you nicely, it just shows that despite these so called negative flaws that i notice, I still appreciate you as a friend and overlook these flaws. It's just something, an honest view if you'd like to call it that. Up to you whether or not you want to change them.

Okay first of all, this isn't something you can really change, kinda came naturally. Your looks. Since when was it bad to be attractive and be good looking you may ask? Well first of all maybe the attention is great and all but like sometimes guys who fall for you are given false hope you know? Like I get that you show that you're not interested but if you do ever start leading them on, you might see it as making them happy which is good but leading them on is never a good thing. They'll be disappointed in the end after wasting so much time liking you. There are quite a few guys I know, from my own observations maybe 5-6 guys have their sights onto you. Not all of them show it but when they're around you, I can just feel it. Take note that you can't change your appearances but I'm just saying, we all see it LOL

Secondly, pride. I never really thought about nor gave a shit about the word pride ever until I talked to you. We had this talk once about it, apologising, confrontations and all that. This isn't directed at you but at everyone who stumbles across this. Guys saying sorry isn't bad unless it no longer has a meaning. I mean apologising to someone and admitting you're wrong, who the heck wants that right? It's so pride depriving and it makes you lose face but honestly if a friendship, relationship or whatever is, is worth it, why not do it. Who cares about all that, it's better just to admit your mistakes, learn from it and move on. However, not admitting you're wrong is another thing. Knowing that you had a little fault in it and just not  apologising.. sigh i don't feel like going into that. Sorry Lucy LOL.

What else is there to say? Ah... the thing on the last week of school. Okay well I didn't confront you with this yet because I wasn't sure as to how to do so. I'm pretty sure you knew what you were doing and yeah from my point of view, I don't think that was such a good idea but judging from the few recent days, it hasn't really had an affect so I guess it was just pure luck that nobody was crushed by it.