Remember the time you said "I'm going to have a diary"? I never had that moment till like yesterday and I do intend on going along with it. Posting stuff on Blogspot is one thing but a diary is another. What I choose not to write on here will be in that diary. I feel like a bitch but so be it, I want to look back on how I perceived things at particular moments and so on. Don't get me wrong, diaries may be childish but if you give it enough thought, It's mature to keep a diary.

(No, my diary doesn't look anything like this)

Will no longer let my feelings distract me from reality.

The irony is just really amusing, but it disturbs me how you still try..

Groups

Girls are trouble, if it was just us guys, there wouldn't be any problems but once you bring a girl into it, we'll probably start fighting as well.

I can't understand how a girl thinks, they can be nice *but* they can be bitches at the same time.

I'm not one picky over how girls look. She has a bad haircut etc etc etc

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Sick of these stupid remarks, may not be word for word but I'm certain some of you may be able to picture someone you know who thinks alike.

Just another trip down memory lane

Work

From now on, I will disable my Internet and WiFi when I do work, so I don't have to see anything or think about anything.

Feelings, emotions and all that rubbish

I'm a great liar. So great that I can even lie to myself and fall for it. I always thought that if I believed in something enough, I would be able to lie to myself forever; and the truth could never be uncovered. Feelings and thoughts which I would be able to bury deep within my mind.

How foolish

So easily it was dug up and now even I don't know what's real and what isn't. Feelings are real but there's this absence, a sense of loss if you will. Feelings about certain people.

> Whether or not you know, your actions have affected me. No matter how much big of a deal it is/was to you, at least once- you've changed the way I thought about you.

Maybe, just maybe, for each and every one of you, I've lied to myself about just so I could see you in a positive light. Just so we could remain as "friends".