Feelings, emotions and all that rubbish

I'm a great liar. So great that I can even lie to myself and fall for it. I always thought that if I believed in something enough, I would be able to lie to myself forever; and the truth could never be uncovered. Feelings and thoughts which I would be able to bury deep within my mind.

How foolish

So easily it was dug up and now even I don't know what's real and what isn't. Feelings are real but there's this absence, a sense of loss if you will. Feelings about certain people.

> Whether or not you know, your actions have affected me. No matter how much big of a deal it is/was to you, at least once- you've changed the way I thought about you.

Maybe, just maybe, for each and every one of you, I've lied to myself about just so I could see you in a positive light. Just so we could remain as "friends".