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Why

No, I don't know how it feels to be a dying dog but if I were to describe how I feel that would be it. Out of all days my body decides that today was the time to get sick. If it was a flu, a cold or whatever I wouldn't mind as much but no. My brother recently recovered from a virus which made you have strong headaches, caused you to vomit and diarrhea a lot. Thankfully I'm not having diarrhea but I do feel the urge to vomit most of the time. I spent my morning at Regents Park library from 10-12 then when it closed, headed home and set my 'study environment'. To my surprise out of all methods of studying, this turned out the best for me. Usually I would try to sit there, read and write stuff down so I could remember it but this time, all I literally did was lay in bed, have a bottle of water, an empty bucket, a box of tissues and a laptop by my side. I laid there reading the notes from Dropbox and I can some how remember most of it. If I knew this would work for me I would've done it ages ago. Now every time I get up, I get a massive headache, some strange pain in my body around my neck/chest and the having the urge to vomit. Such a shit feeling, I don't even feel like eating anything yet my mum just places food in front of me. I want to sleep for days and not wake up but unfortunately, the HSC is roughly 39 hours away.

I feel like a brat complaining so much on twitter and stuff but hey seriously.. worst timing ever and feeling ever :(. What makes it worse is I haven't studied Economics at all and I haven't written any practice essays for English. Right now, I'm still studying Bio.. I know I'm just going to die in the HSC.

I just hope this feeling subsides soon or else I'll just fail my HSC then and there, trying to hold back the urge to vomit every 5 minutes.

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It's difficult, I won't say "please just kill me" but I will ask "how do I deal with this?"

Blogging way too much

I can't help it.. Twitter isn't enough to get my emotions, my thoughts and all that out. I will always come back to this but then I'd stop and decide not to post anything. Such an eerie night and it's so close to our exams. Not prepared, no where near but I'm trying.

I have so many things to say but there's just nothing I can do about it. My life has gone to shits and this is only the beginning.. sigh. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I miss people, i miss seeing and talking to them but most of all, I miss you.

Wow

Went over the other blog and realised how much I ranted, looks like I've lost my touch.

Everything was fine until I stumbled upon this..

I admit we have our ups and downs but this.. What's funny is it isn't directed but can be applied to anyone. If you were reading this, I think you'd agree too wouldn't you?

100th

Post #100.

I still listen to Yiruma every now and then, I think it's a normal thing yet it makes me feel unusual or strange

Finally