What a dull night.. I hope I dream of something.. something deep and fulfilling but doesn't make me sleep till 3pm.
Goodnight people.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Cancer
The crab, just like Kwo. Cancerians, crabs, uhmm I don't know. Based on my limited knowledge which I obtained from some research long long ago back in 2010, cancers are really feminine.
That's what the book says but after observing myself for a good but tough two years, I've developed my own view on what cancers are like.
That's what the book says but after observing myself for a good but tough two years, I've developed my own view on what cancers are like.
June 22 - July 23
To my beloved readers.. If I were to summarise the type of person I am or what I think most cancers would be;
Emotional
Empathetic
Intuitive
Cautious but caring
Moody
Clingy
Over emotional
Over protective
That's if I were to summarise it in a few words. According to the info I gathered from the Internet, we love our homes, we love home-cooked meals, and etc etc.
However for me, I don't seem to like my home as much as I should have (based on what I read). I know that I've definitely changed a lot over the two years, and just to make it clear, I think I used to be more closer to what other websites describe as a cancer. I still have similar traits but now that I'm more social, my shyness doesn't really show anymore. Maybe it's because I'm comfortable with the people I know however, if it were another person, a stranger whom I had to talk to, I'd be back to my old sweaty shaky self.
What I love about being a cancer:
Empathy- I've alway thought it was a good trait, something that society needs, everyone should have the ability to empathise naturally. Obviously not because if we all did, there would be no murderers or criminals am I right? Everyone would be considerate of each individual and their families' feelings to commit any wrong right? Unfortunately not everybody empathises. It's allowed me to connect with people, place myself in their shoes if you will. Be able to imagine, understand how a person feels during certain times, when things happen. That's what made me want to seek people, made me want to talk to them about problems, because I think that if I am able to understand how somebody feels, I should feel obliged to at least let them know that they aren't alone, that I too can feel how they do.
Caring- My previous post was about caring so not much will be said. Empathy leads to caring, being able to understand then having the desire to help. I never found harm in lending a hand to people who required it- or even if they didn't need it, I'd still be happy to.
Protective- Yeah not many people seem to like overprotective guys/ people right? Despite how it can push people away, I like how protective we are, and usually being protective shows that you don't want someone to get hurt, you don't want them to go through things they will regret. On the contrary (sounds incorrect after reading the definition of this word on Lucy's post), the only time I dislike being protective is when jealousy occurs or when the person you're protective over doesn't listen to you. I might not have the power to command you but yeah being protective isn't always good for us because it leads to a higher chance of being disappointed if our expectations are not met.
Intuition- Till this day I still don't know exactly where this word derived from or what it exactly means. Still this is my own extended explanation of it. An ability or a passive trait that isn't that noticeable until it is pointed out or put to the test? Having a feeling, like an instinct that allows you to make decisions, usually the correct ones. Intuition is just something close to a sense, not the 6th necessarily but nevertheless something like that. AH INSTINCTIVE, another word that's similar.. I guess that works well. I've had so many dreams (like Bill mentioned some time ago), where I dreamt about something which happened to come true. Movies which I never saw on billboards, television ads but somehow predicted that it'd become big. Doesn't seem much right? There are other things which I can't remember but it's just satisfying even if it's false hope, to feel like you have the ability to predict things.
That's about it. I'm pretty sure I've bored most of you by now if I haven't already caused you to turn away cause of this long post.
Other than this, we're still shy and emotional and will most likely crawl back into our shells when things aren't going too well for us.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Caring
When it comes to me caring about people and telling them what I think, it always comes across another way and backfires on me. It's happened twice in a day and I'm sort of sick of it. Despite how somebody shows that they care, as long as it's not physical and doesn't involve others other than you and the person, I don't think it's a bad thing. With me, I end up coming across as "nosey" and the sort of person who doesn't mind my own business.
I used to think caring was a good thing, something to be proud of since it depicted and showed the fact that you were able to empathise with another person and be understanding. Then sometimes my perspective of caring about others would change. Especially when they don't recognise or appreciate it.
So much I could go on about-
Well alright then I'm sorry that I cared, as a matter of fact what if I stopped caring I mean that'll be one less person on your back who has always tried to be some sort of safety net to pick you back up when you choke or crash.
People who ask "are you okay?" Sure it seems to have a little meaning but what else can they say? Think about that next time. If you saw someone on the street who was on their knees, whether or not they're crying or they're just there on the ground, the first thing you'd most likely ask (if you had the decency to) would be "are you okay?" right?
Even with a friend, if he's pissed, she's pissed or they're crying, you'd most likely approach them and say "are you okay?" or "don't worry about it, it's fine/it'll be alright". Seems meaningless enough, until you're the person whose hurt, would you rather have a stranger/friend say that to you or have nobody there at all.
Why do I ask? Because despite how close I am with people I know, regardless of strength of our relationship, along with most other guys I know, we can't stand there without the urge of asking "are you okay?"; "is there anything I can do to help?", questions like that.
Imagine of all of us stopped. You can just sit there and we'd watch you like most commoners do.
Now this leads me to another subtopic, do people really care or are they just nosey like you assumed I was. How can you tell right? Well first of all, it's the person themselves. Do they seem like the type to care or do you know them as the type of person to wonder around spreading talks and just the type to want to know what happens around them? Yeah that's an obvious one, people who don't care will approach you and just ask questions of no relevance like "hey, do you hate this person", "when was the last time you talked to ...." need I go on? Maybe it's just me but It's really obvious for me and when people do that, I'd just generically respond with the "I don't know".
People who do care are sometimes the people you least expect. I will tell you from time to time when we can chat privately but I won't be the person to give you shit for what you do because a person who cares just wants to be there to help you and let you know what they think to ensure that you don't get hurt and remain happy.
I used to think caring was a good thing, something to be proud of since it depicted and showed the fact that you were able to empathise with another person and be understanding. Then sometimes my perspective of caring about others would change. Especially when they don't recognise or appreciate it.
So much I could go on about-
Well alright then I'm sorry that I cared, as a matter of fact what if I stopped caring I mean that'll be one less person on your back who has always tried to be some sort of safety net to pick you back up when you choke or crash.
People who ask "are you okay?" Sure it seems to have a little meaning but what else can they say? Think about that next time. If you saw someone on the street who was on their knees, whether or not they're crying or they're just there on the ground, the first thing you'd most likely ask (if you had the decency to) would be "are you okay?" right?
Even with a friend, if he's pissed, she's pissed or they're crying, you'd most likely approach them and say "are you okay?" or "don't worry about it, it's fine/it'll be alright". Seems meaningless enough, until you're the person whose hurt, would you rather have a stranger/friend say that to you or have nobody there at all.
Why do I ask? Because despite how close I am with people I know, regardless of strength of our relationship, along with most other guys I know, we can't stand there without the urge of asking "are you okay?"; "is there anything I can do to help?", questions like that.
Imagine of all of us stopped. You can just sit there and we'd watch you like most commoners do.
Now this leads me to another subtopic, do people really care or are they just nosey like you assumed I was. How can you tell right? Well first of all, it's the person themselves. Do they seem like the type to care or do you know them as the type of person to wonder around spreading talks and just the type to want to know what happens around them? Yeah that's an obvious one, people who don't care will approach you and just ask questions of no relevance like "hey, do you hate this person", "when was the last time you talked to ...." need I go on? Maybe it's just me but It's really obvious for me and when people do that, I'd just generically respond with the "I don't know".
People who do care are sometimes the people you least expect. I will tell you from time to time when we can chat privately but I won't be the person to give you shit for what you do because a person who cares just wants to be there to help you and let you know what they think to ensure that you don't get hurt and remain happy.
Blogging
They only place I can state what I think freely and not care. Though, I do have to be cautious of what I say since there's no knowing who reads this blog and well yeah.
Onto sex! Where to start..? Personally, never thought it was a need but a want. Depending on the stage of your relationship with somebody, It could be classified as lust, love or kinky monkey.
Lust - Usually when you don't know the girl's name and maybe not even what they sound like. It kinda ranges actually, lust can go as far as some girl at school or on the street to a person you talk to every day. Despite this, wanting to root a girl whether it be a stranger or a friend is what I would call lust.
Love - Obviously in most cases, you only feel love (I will maybe post another topic on what love feels like LOL) when you're in a relationship. I don't know what to say, maybe after being with a girl for so long, knowing all their secrets, the less and more important things about her, eventually sexual thoughts will start arising in a guy's mind. Oh yeah that brings me back to Kwo & Matthew's post about how sex is all guys think about. Not necessarily but maybe a majority of guys. Anyway always going off topic, I guess with guys and maybe perhaps girls, after knowing someone inside out, meeting their emotional needs will eventually lead to physical needs. If I were to describe it, it's pretty spontaneous. It's like a plant growing up. The roots extend into the soil, absorbing and as much information as they can and eventually they will come to a stop and grow every now and then as time pasts. The stem will grow representing the seriousness of the relationship and the age of the relationship (weeks, months & years). This will then eventually cause flowers to blossom just like a guy's wootwoot LOL. What I'm trying to say is after being able to emotionally satisfy each other, one day the physical stuff will eventually happen. For me, I'm completely fine with holding hands and hugging.
Kinky Monkey - Single guy, may have had an ex to make them that desperate or maybe even already desperate since puberty. All you want to do is meet girls through friends and then try to talk to them a lot in hope for the opportunity to get close and just physically benefit from them. All you think about is girls and the desire to have intercourse or any other sexual activity.
I kinda have no idea what I just posted about. My brain don't really f(x) well at night and I start becoming a different person. You don't want to see me different.
Goodnight donkey
Onto sex! Where to start..? Personally, never thought it was a need but a want. Depending on the stage of your relationship with somebody, It could be classified as lust, love or kinky monkey.
Lust - Usually when you don't know the girl's name and maybe not even what they sound like. It kinda ranges actually, lust can go as far as some girl at school or on the street to a person you talk to every day. Despite this, wanting to root a girl whether it be a stranger or a friend is what I would call lust.
Love - Obviously in most cases, you only feel love (I will maybe post another topic on what love feels like LOL) when you're in a relationship. I don't know what to say, maybe after being with a girl for so long, knowing all their secrets, the less and more important things about her, eventually sexual thoughts will start arising in a guy's mind. Oh yeah that brings me back to Kwo & Matthew's post about how sex is all guys think about. Not necessarily but maybe a majority of guys. Anyway always going off topic, I guess with guys and maybe perhaps girls, after knowing someone inside out, meeting their emotional needs will eventually lead to physical needs. If I were to describe it, it's pretty spontaneous. It's like a plant growing up. The roots extend into the soil, absorbing and as much information as they can and eventually they will come to a stop and grow every now and then as time pasts. The stem will grow representing the seriousness of the relationship and the age of the relationship (weeks, months & years). This will then eventually cause flowers to blossom just like a guy's wootwoot LOL. What I'm trying to say is after being able to emotionally satisfy each other, one day the physical stuff will eventually happen. For me, I'm completely fine with holding hands and hugging.
Kinky Monkey - Single guy, may have had an ex to make them that desperate or maybe even already desperate since puberty. All you want to do is meet girls through friends and then try to talk to them a lot in hope for the opportunity to get close and just physically benefit from them. All you think about is girls and the desire to have intercourse or any other sexual activity.
I kinda have no idea what I just posted about. My brain don't really f(x) well at night and I start becoming a different person. You don't want to see me different.
Goodnight donkey
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Remnants of a memory
S m t I c s a y b I w n. I r t t w w u t p t g a g w e o u a s. I w a t b a i, g t, k m t. N t w a n l t I n h m y h c, l, w. W b u t b s s a l a I t t c n c b o f t b. H w w I r? H. A I w y g l a I h y f s w t d y a i a t m y m h t I e h. G l w y IB e.
T m t f d w o r h c t a e - 08/10/12.
I h t d w s m o y s, g u t y s s h a e y g o y e-c, T.C. Y p m t s m a s I h y f i h t b h y m h m m a l s.
P.S. Y a s a h.
G b.
-J
I h t d w s m o y s, g u t y s s h a e y g o y e-c, T.C. Y p m t s m a s I h y f i h t b h y m h m m a l s.
P.S. Y a s a h.
G b.
-J
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