Never did the negative sides of the people I know stand out so much.. It's the last week of school too and it's strange knowing that I will miss you guys but also noticing several things that would make me dislike you. I read a post about trying not to be unhappy on the last week of school; I totally agree and understand that, however the things that I see... this realisation that I've been experiencing all of this week and the last, I'm not sure if it makes me miss you all a little more or if I'm just disappointed in how I didn't think about all of this earlier so that I would have grown accustomed to it.
If any of you questions me about this at school or anywhere else, I will not know what you're talking about because I personally did not blog this, I'm half asleep and letting my subconsciousness take over and control my fingers.
I always do things too late, it's always last minute and as I go on to list my own perspective of myself, I'm contemplating on whether to do a 'TBH' sort of thing on this blog, of course this might be the only time I'll be doing it since it may or may not be the last time I ever see or speak to any of you, ever again.
I'll try to make it more detailed than the ones you see on Facebook but yeah I'm sorry if I miss out on the key moments we had if we had any; also take note that this is TBH, not a suck up post about how much I love you and give you a rate out of 10; so yeah there will be things that you probably never knew that I thought about you; unless I decide not to do so to spare some feelings or misunderstandings.
What I think about myself:
Honestly, where do I start?
-I've never been a person to study or try hard which is why I've always found it difficult to try hard. I'm an all rounder student and I have my highs and lows, with results ranging from 40-80%
-I've always been fat from year 4-now, I'm just more toned and lost some weight after going to the Gym for the year 11-12 long holidays and I honestly want to continue to go so I can get big enough so that I can kick them annoying Arabs; yeah call me racist but I dislike most Arabs because of the generalised stereotype.
-Side note, I like people like Saim and most of the nicer Arabs, those shit heads like... M and yeah you know who, some in our grade, some year 9's and so on, they give Arabs a bad name and reputation.
MOVING on
-Uhmmm... Like every other guy, I used to like girls easily simply from looks - Ah WHICH LEADS ME TO SOMETHING THAT I DO LIKE ABOUT MYSELF - not falling for looks any more. yes you can be hot, pretty, cute, whatever but still if I dislike your personality - if you're a total bitch, you're rude, or anything that doesn't make me want to even think about you, sorry but yeah, ever since year 10, mid way, or something, I finally broke out of my superficial errr.. yeah part of me? And moving on from that, I guess that's when I became more mature, thought about things, how my actions affect others, so on so on.
-I like to make people feel comfortable and somewhat happy around me, whether I need to smile more, laugh or just you know look happy around them, show that I'm comfortable with you, yeah I'd do it.
-I like to sleep... I can sleep from 2am till 6pm if nobody wakes me up - this happened during one of the holidays, i can't remember but yeah I'm a deep sleeper and even if one of you people shook me or slapped my face, I don't think I'd wake up immediately.
Ooh speaking of sleep, some of the more private things LOL.. well I don't think it's awkward if any of you knew since i find it pretty normal to talk about it but yeah - the things that you guys wouldn't really care about any way.
-Speaking of sleep, I have NOT have had a wet dream in all my life LOL, it's common for guys? Well it never occurred to me, puberty. So I will never experience the strange feeling and even the consequences of having a dream where I was able to climax to LAWLs.
- Nah that seemed a little appropriate, i think I should keep all other details to myself.
-I've never been this open before, I used to be shy and enclosed and I'd sweat when girls, yet even, guys talked to me.
-I think I'm a friendly person who CAN be there for any of you if you ever want to talk or whatever, I'm great at keeping secrets, and personal stuff you share with me sooo yeah LOL, I don't make promises which I can't keep so if we ever promise anything, you better be sure to uphold your side of the deal.
-I don't feel as if I'm tall enough.. I've had this talk with numerous people pretty recently, if only i kept on eating and getting fatter till year 11, who knows I could be 3 cms taller.
-I hate pimples and I get them easily
-I sleep with two toys, a pig, Piggy and a green dinosaur, Yoshi.
-I don't call it bitching when you share your opinions with a person who willingly accepts and understands your opinion but also you understand theirs, so I like talks like that.
-I also like reminiscing, speaking of our junior/younger years, discovering things and stuff.
-Bitching is when all you talk about is how bad a person is, their flaws, all my chats have both positive and negatives, when I do have these talks - so not really bitching :)
That sums most of it up so yeah
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